Mary Lou Allwein

I have always known God and have never doubted that He send His only Son to die for our sins. I guess my problem was even though I believed; I didn't put His teachings and commands into use as I should hae. I just wasn't as good as I could or should have been. It was not for a lack of upbringing because I came from a Christian home with wonderful Christian parents. They taught me from day one about God. I was baptized as an infant and as a youth was active in the church. It was after high school that things started to unravel. I started to drift away from church and I put God on the back burner. I got lazy; I guess I didn't feel the need to take everything to God.

My children have been a great tool in getting me to this point. I never really read my bible so when they would tell me things that they learned from the bible I was skeptical about some of it. At this point in my life I was very confused and felt unsettled. Thanks to their persistence I am now where I should beve been since day one. and wat to be. I am at a place whter I want to rekindle that relationship that relationship I started out with as a child. I want God to be number one in my life, not two or three. I have been asking God to come into my life so that I might walk in His ways and become more like Him. I want to be saved so that I might have everlasting life with God the Father and be reunited with my loved ones who have gone on before me.

I am so sick of Satan shadowing me and messing with my life. He's succeeded in making me feel like less than a person and has caused me to stumble and fall so many time. I want him gone? Mother used to tell me "God doesn't make bad things". I really want to take this step in faith because I really need Him in my life. I pray that this will be the start to a new and closer relationship with God.